I watched a
bird knock itself against my windows all day every day for over a week this
spring.
It banged
awhile on the studio window then moved to the house and hit the office window
then the sun room.
I think it
fascinated me because even though all I ever get is a headache when I bang my
head continuously against something...
...until I
come up with a better answer I tend to do the same thing over and over again
because I know what to expect...and sometimes that's easier to live with than the
unexpected.
Getting a
handle on change is never easy.
When it is
related to aging it can really be a tangled mess...and very hard to face.
One of the
harder issues for me to deal with about growing older is getting stuck on the
island of physical limitations.
How do I go
from...I can't do it anymore...to either discovering a new way to do it...
or deciding when to move on in a new direction.
It's all
about finding new patterns. I have begun
meditating and journaling again each morning and new patterns are beginning to
emerge. It's an ongoing process...a
lifetime process. The alternative is to
become old...
and..AT THE
END OF THE DAY...I'm not ready for that...
